So last night I was sitting there like this. Confused. Trying to figure out Wordpress. Still. Well sitting here like this except my eyes weren’t crossed. I do think they were a little glazed over reading about loops and conditional tags and oops my eyes just crossed. ;-D

So I took a break and started to draw. Drawing me confused. It’s a funny little picture, my arms are weird and look too long, and it’s just a little off but I liked it so am sharing it.

Well at least I figured out how to shrink the comment field so it wasn’t so damn big. And now if I can figure out my date based headers I’d be happy as a clam.

Just had to draw that too.

A couple of weeks ago I had a problem publishing to my blog. Problem as in it would not publish after trying every so often for THREE HOURS! So I thought I’d give Wordpress a try. And plus I like how they handle comments, in that you’re able to edit them and also that you get people’s email addresses instead of having to search high and low for them. However it’s sort of frustrating trying to get my blog over looking the way I want it to look. Like pull my hair out kind of frustrating.

I’m just blundering around not really knowing what I’m doing. See what I’m talking about. For example: I don’t know how to get my background color, that yellowish color, in back. But I guess I don’t really need that. No big deal. And how do I get my archives to display my old header? I sort of like how when I go back I can see my blog the way it was at that time. Is that even possible with Wordpress? That’s something I can live without…I guess. But one thing that is driving me absolutely batty right now is the comment form. WHY IS IT SO DAMN BIG?? I tried playing around with my style file but it’s not in there. Maybe it’s in the comment file. Has anyone made the change over and if you have which one did you like better, Blogger or Wordpress? Keeping in mind that I really like customizing the way my blog looks.

Well at least Isabelle is always a cute distraction. She was eating and had food in not just one hand but two!!

First of all, thank you all for the well wishes for Alan’s birthday! It’s so sweet that people we’ve never met are wishing him a happy birthday.

And now for what was supposed to be a short post but isn’t turning out to be that:

You know, I was trying to keep away. I was. I wasn’t going to go on my computer at all the rest of the week. But its siren call kept beckoning and I found myself reading blogs yesterday. And then I was compelled to draw a new banner. The warm weather was screaming at me to change it. It’s silly to see us ice skating when it’s been warm and we’re out in skirts and dresses…well not Alan because he doesn’t like wearing skirts or dresses. (that I know of. Just kidding honey. I know he doesn’t like wearing skirts or dresses. We’ve known each other so long I’m sure I’ve actually asked if he secretly liked dressing as a woman, probably after watching some movie about a guy who wanted to be a woman. And I digress. What was I saying?)

So I asked Alan what I should draw for the new banner. He said something about green hills I think. I can’t remember exactly and he’s asleep right now. I don’t want to run into the bedroom and wake him up just to ask. But anyhoo I am going off subject again, this is what I came up with: us laying on a blanket in the grass.

Ok now I am going to TRY to stay away from this addictive machine the rest of the week. No blog reading today. Try to stay away from email even. (Gasp! Is that possible?) Just post this and I’m gone.

I’ve been meaning to make a new banner but my wacom pen wasn’t working. Why? Because I let Isabelle play with my wacom pen and it stopped working for days. Why do I keep letting her play with important things? Well the pen finally started working again so I made a new banner for the winter.

I know we don’t have snow here or ice skating on ponds. But so what! It’s my blog and I’ll draw what I want to!

It has finally gotten cold here. Today Isabelle actually had pants on. So it seemed silly that my banner had us in bathing suits. I hurriedly drew something up. I’m not entirely sure about it. I’m not loving it. But of course I didn’t love our bathing suit banner either. Maybe I’ll do something else…

It’s been so warm lately. My banner with us all bundled up was just screaming for a change. So change it is.

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OOoh scary…as I was trying to post this and update everything Isabelle started to fuss a little in her sleep. So I went to lay down next to her when all of a sudden we had a power outage. Usually we sleep with our closet light on so when the power went out that went out. Luckily my laptop was open so light was coming from there. Unluckily it’s low on batteries so it went dark and WE WERE IN THE PITCH DARK. No white noise and no light. I got up to look for some light and panicked a bit.

Do you know how scary it is to fumble around in the house in the dark looking for a lighter you hope is where you remembered it while your sleeping daughter is in your big bed? Well let me tell you. It’s fucking scary.

All the thoughts that were banging around in my head: I worried that if I couldn’t find a light then how to get back into bed without being able to see Isabelle!! And then I couldn’t find our candles that used to be on the coffee table because we moved it when we made room for the air mattress. And then I couldn’t call Alan because I need a new cell phone and the cordless phones don’t work because hello they need electricity. and the regular corded phone that used to be in the second bedroom just for this case got moved when it became Isabelle’s room. I don’t know where our plug in the wall charge up flashlights are. They aren’t plugged in. Honey plug them in. Ya reading this? Oh and what the hell do I do if I can’t find light and the power stays off all night? Awww!! Those were some of my panicked thoughts. I don’t know how many more I had groping around in the dark…

And yes I managed to find a lighter and candles. And luckily the power came back on eventually.

But can you feel how panicked I was by this incoherent post?

I just realized how very unprepared we are in case of an emergency.

My little turtle face girl had a doctor’s appointment today (I call her that because lately she’s been making this turtle face a lot). She now weighs 18 pounds 6 oz. She’s in the 94th percentile or something for weight but her head size is only in the 75th percentile. Her head is too small for her body!! Ha ha ha! Just kidding. She’s perfect I say!!! PERFECT!

And in other less fun and more disturbing news…I was checking my stats and saw someone linked to me and used a picture of Isabelle and altered it a little (not in a bad way, they just added some text). It wasn’t creepy like look at MY adorable baby and web page it was more like oh I like this and the baby looks happy but let me tell you it was sort of disturbing and freaking me out, the fact that my baby’s picture was out there somewhere I did not put and didn’t allow and these strangers were talking about her, MY BABY!! I’m ok with people linking to me but taking her picture and posting it…freaky!!

And I showed Alan. And it’s not just me. He felt a little disturbed by it too. My inital reaction was of removing her pictures and not posting them anymore. I mean it really freaked me out. And the more I thought about it the more I was bothered and thought oh hell what’s the use? I might as well just remove this blog COMPLETELY!

But today I’ve calmed down a bit. My family and friends keep up to date on us here so I don’t want to stop blogging. So I’ve watermarked this picture and will for future pictures and try to get the old ones too. I’ve put that script back on even though it won’t work for the bloglines feed. I could block the picture from showing up on bloglines but I really like reading feeds with the picture there so I assume others do too so I am not doing that yet…And plus people who read regularly aren’t going to post pictures of Isabelle in strange places. Right? RIGHT?

Right! Well we’ll see how I’m feeling about everything later. I don’t know what to do. I’m just all weirded out.