When I sat down tonight to write this post, I was going to say how I was still undecided about what to do with this blog. I was going to write, how I was very seriously contemplating just shutting it all down and just exclusively using Flickr. Flickr has everything I need, I can go back and look at the pictures of the kids. I can access it everywhere. As I sat editing our monthly photos, all those thoughts and more were running through my head.

Then I uploaded these photos to Flickr and…

…and it dawned on me why Flickr by itself is NOT going to work for me. When there is no blogging, like last month, I don’t upload any photos. They sit untouched on my computer. Look at this set of all the pictures I took of Isabelle for month 76. There are four. F.O.U.R! I definitely took more than four pictures. I think I took more than four pictures. See, with no blogging, I have no clue. And no pictures to look at? I will definitely miss pictures.

So…so…I’m not going to stop blogging. In fact, there will be blogging! You might even get some pictures from the Christmas season on here because…F.O.U.R. pictures!! But as to how I’m going to do it? I don’t know. But at least now, I know I want to.

Oh and I completely forgot. These pictures. I didn’t say a thing about them. These are our monthly photos. Isabelle is now six years four months. Nathan is two years four months. I particularly love the zombie shots of the kids. I don’t know what it is with my kids and zombies. The other day Nathan was in the car singing a little song to himself…about zombies. ZOMBIES!!

And that tongue picture? Nathan has been doing that lately unexpectedly for pictures. So funny.

I’ve been feeling a little uninspired lately. I don’t know what’s wrong. I’m in some kind of slump. No making. No drawing. I haven’t felt like getting on the computer. I’ve barely downloaded any photos off the camera all month though I have been taking pictures when the mood strikes, like this one from today as we were driving home.

Maybe I’m a morning person, after all, and the kids staying up late for months and less sun has knocked me for a loop. I don’t know. I haven’t felt like doing much of anything. I feel like I’m drowning in day to day living, the days are too short and I can’t get anything done.

I’ve been thinking about what I want to do with this space here of mine and I honestly don’t have an answer anymore. Yes, I’ve actually thought about not blogging anymore seeing as how I haven’t been doing much of it.

Would I be missed if I stopped writing here? I’ve always said that I write for myself. I’ve always thought of this as a journal that I can go back and look at whenever or wherever I have an internet connection. A journal strangers and family can look at. I am talking to my future self. But now? I don’t have anything to say to myself. I am royally stuck. I think I need to change gears.

You know what’s silly? I am. I’ve been making a new banner. And I get caught up in these tiny little details that you cannot even see, like our hair. Or the wine and french bread in our basket. And then I neglect things like the placement of our hands, they look a little funky.

So, I decided to just stop and put it up since I’m focusing on the wrong things. Done. New banner.

Last March I had this as my banner.

And coincidentally enough I have little Batmans in my March banner this year. But I have a good reason. I have Batman brain.

Ok, that makes no sense. Let me start over. On Saturday we were at Target for a Dr. Seuss story time. As Alan sat with the kids listening I wandered around looking for clothes for Nathan. He seems to be outgrowing his clothes. (Or I need to fold more laundry since I cannot seem to ever find anything that fits)

As I was scouring the aisles trying to find something larger than 12 months old for boys (for some reason they have tons of girl clothes) I came upon a little Batman outfit on sale for $4, $12 off the original price. Whoo hoo! I love a deal.

So, I snapped that up but then it wasn’t such a bargain when I bought one for Isabelle too, not on sale. Oh well. She loves it.

And the reason probably has to do with the removable velcro capes that are attached to the back.

She wore it on Sunday and Monday. I’m surprised she didn’t ask for it every day since. So, then of course I had Batman shirts on the brain and that’s why my banner came out the way it did. Batman brain.

And on a completely different subject, look how big Nathan has gotten. Below is the same motorcycle at the park a little over a year ago.

And back to Batman. We should have gotten a Robin one instead for Nathan. Then they’d be running around, my little Batman and Robin. But the Batman was on sale for $4!! I couldn’t say no to that. Batmans everywhere! Alan should have gotten one too. I think we’ll have to look for one for him.

I made a new banner today. And, as usual, I need some input when I’m making it. I wanted us as gingerbread cookies but I think we look more like poo. I may work on it a little more. Maybe. Or maybe I’ll just accept us in all our poo-alicious glory.

Alan suggested I make a gingerbread house behind us. But I didn’t really want to spend gobs of time on it. And he originally liked the first background I had, with us cookies standing outside in the snow with snowflakes all around. But that’s even more poo like…doggy poo…outside. I could have added some steam lines to us.

I think my favorite of Alan’s suggestions was this:

Bwa ha ha!! Twisted.

*Update: I added an outline so we’re not so poopy anymore.