So…I’m past 12 weeks and I’m feeling awful. Warning: depressing post ahead.

I felt good for 2 days last week. (Right about the time I was getting to my 12 weeks.) I was sooo excited and soooo happy. I was ecstatic. Then the nausea came back. There are no words to describe my frustration. The other night all I could do was cry with frustration. I’m getting snappy and pissy. Driving home the other day I was impatient and very unlike myself. Usually I am a laid back driver and I travel about speed limit. But lately I’ve been speeding in a rush to get home because I dread vomiting in the car. And I’m yelling at other drivers who cannot hear me. And just daring fate to have a cop pull me over so I can throw up on him. And what else is unlike me? I’ve had the urge to talk to telemarketers. Yes to actually talk to those people who most of us avoid. Why? Because I want to be pissy at someone or to cry over the phone at some stranger and sound like a complete crazy pregnant woman.

Oh what else? I’ve gotten to the point where I’m scared to eat. After eating I get a bad taste in my mouth and then my stomach gets all queasy and I have to fight not to throw up. And I’m so worried that I’m hurting the baby. I’m scared to eat and drink and I’m worried I’m dehydrated.

What else? I’ve been staying away from lemons. It gets rid of the bad taste but a friend warned me that the citric acid might be upsetting my stomach. So I stopped the lemons. For a while there dried orange peels from the Asian store were helping. But now it’s not.

Ok so I’ll end today’s depressing post with a tip. If you ever need to vomit while you are in the shower make every effort humanly possible to hop out and run to the toilet. One night I couldn’t get out fast enough and umm…really gross and just trying to type it up now makes me want to vomit so I’ll just stop myself.