It’s Leta’s birthday today. Happy Birthday Leta! It might be my hormones but Dooce’s newsletter this month had me bawling. I just know how it feels to want this baby so bad even when I’m absolutely miserable as I have been for the past two days with morning sickness. It’s been so frustrating. I’m pissy and whenever I look at Alan I’m mad, irrationally mad because it’s not like he can make my morning sickness magically disappear. But crazy though it sounds when I look at him that’s what I’m thinking about: how dare you not make my morning sickness go away?! How can you just sit there looking so NOT SICK when I feel like CRAP?!

I think I’m annoying Alan. I can see it in his face. He knows how frustrated I am and that makes him frustrated which makes me even more frustrated. He went and took his shower with his grumpy face with his eyebrows all drawn together and his mouth all tight. But when he came out he was better. He kissed me on the cheek and then again on the forehead before he went to sleep.

Still didn’t make my morning sickness go away though.