I’ve been feeling blah lately. No, let me put an actual word to it. I’ve been feeling useless. I’m not working. I feel like I’m not contributing. I’m not rasing kids. Before the miscarriage I had a reason for being, a reason for not working, I was bringing a life into this world. But not anymore. I’ve been feeling low for a couple of days. I’ve been knitting and trying to find things to do. I’ve tried to take up drawing again. In fact I’ve been trying to for months. It’s been sporadic. Just here and there. But it really didn’t kick in until today, in the wee hours of the morning. I was just in the drawing mood. I just wanted to draw something, anything, just for the sake of drawing. So I did. I hope I will be in many more drawing moods.